I�ve been watching the numbers dwindle on my list of �diaries which list nightngale as a favorite diary� and trying not to make it mean anything about me. Other than I�m a sporadically updating fool, of course. I always take such things so personally. I wonder sometimes why I have an online journal, and then I remember that I like to keep track of the course of my life. Oh, and I also like attention.
I�m also trying not to be surprised that this new mindset of happiness and serenity is sticking around. It�s not like it doesn�t take any work. In fact, as part of my morning routine, while I�m in the shower, I spend a couple minutes visualizing what I believe my life would look and feel like, filled with love and prosperity. It�s pretty fun, imagining Hero kissing the top of my head and bringing me flowers, imagining being able to buy my daughter clothes while smiling, instead of balancing the cost of a cheap tee shirt with the cost of groceries. It�s definitely taking practice to let go of fear and to remember that God wants me to be happy and prosperous, but it�s working. I�m noticing the good in my life, and new opportunities are showing up all the time. Besides my new job (which, have I mentioned, I love immensely?), I received an offer today from this site, an offer to market their gorgeous thrums. Fiber junkies (if more than one reads this site), watch out! I�ve personally ordered 2 pounds of the Doublemint color, as a belated birthday gift from Mav. It looks so pretty and sparkly, like something fairies would spin.
So yeah, life is sweet. My typical habit is to worry when I type something like that, like I�m inviting disaster by claiming how good things are. But that is an old mindset, that�s believing in a capricious and cruel universe, and I don�t believe that anymore.
�Sometimes it seems like God is difficult to find and impossibly far away. We get so caught up in our small daily duties and irritations that they become the only things that we can focus on. What we forget is that God's love and beauty are all around us, every day, if only we would take the time to look up and see them.�
-Matthias, Correction Weblog, 11-01-03
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LATELY
My New Page - 2006-04-15
Life is a Magic Thing, Woah. - 2005-11-18
No Dooce for You! - 2005-11-09
The Nicest Thing Anyone Has Ever Said To Me - 2005-09-05
Ugh. Grunt. Some Other Stuff. - 2005-09-01
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all words � ME, 2005.