I was driving back from D's house tonight, almost mesmerized by the fog. It wasn't scary deep, nothing pea-soupish. It was just thick enough to cause pretty effects with porch lights, and to give me a roller-coaster thrill as I drove off the end of the earth.
I'm worried about her. D. Just a little. She's always the strong one, and she's still being that way, but I can tell that all the stuff happening right now, in her life, is chipping away at her a bit. She had her procedure that was supposed to remove all the cancer, but now some of the symptoms have returned. We were talking and both of us thought maybe they came from some other cause; she'll find out more on Friday, hopefully.
I can see my tendency to want to make this about me. We're having (another) run of bad luck right now, and so of course, one of my best friends getting sick figures right into that. But it's not about me. In fact, I should take it as a sign to be grateful for what I do have. My health and my friends and my family. It's about damn time I stopped whining. My eBay items, though small, are at least selling (thanks Baf), and that is encouraging. I may end up making toy wheel spindles day and night, but if I could put my daughter into preschool with the proceeds, then hell yes, I'll do it. Things could turn around at any time.
Life is funny. It just keeps going without even asking my opinion on its direction.
--N
LATELY
My New Page - 2006-04-15
Life is a Magic Thing, Woah. - 2005-11-18
No Dooce for You! - 2005-11-09
The Nicest Thing Anyone Has Ever Said To Me - 2005-09-05
Ugh. Grunt. Some Other Stuff. - 2005-09-01
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